The other day someone asked for clarification, “What does BEingness feel like? How will I know that I am in that space?” Great question!
Just like everything in life, the sensation, feeling, and experience of something is individualistic. Each person comes with their own unique wiring, life journey and delightful matrix blend.
So, I can only describe BEingness from my perspective.
BEingness for me is:
A sensation of infinite expansiveness where love vibrates continuously.
A suspension of time, as though everything slows downs, comes to a standstill, allowing me to center.
A rising sensation of joy, bringing a natural smile to my face and a releasing of all man-made burdens.
A feeling of BEing quietly in the flow of all that is, no separation, no judgment, no DO, just BE.
An inner knowing that everything is working out, that all is happening for me.
A space free of ALL doubt, fear, loss, hurt, worry, judgment, criticism.
A luscious space where you just know that life is a dance, a gift, a way to explore more.
A sensation that knows anything is possible.
It is a vibrational energy that frees me to hear and make decisions from a place of love, creativity, passion and joy.
Ultimately an indescribable space that is difficult to articulate, yet I dream of everyone experiencing its pure freedom and grace.
How do I know I am in that space?:
I am free of Reactionary behavior.
I do NOT feel worry, fear, doubt, judgment, criticism or that I HAVE to DO something, for I am already Enough, Worthy and Perfect as I AM..
I feel relaxed, joyful, peaceful and content.
The outside world does not impact me, I can view the chaos, hear the negativity, yet I do not react.
Time disappears, for I am in a flow of creativity and sharing.
I am not bothered by people’s choices to suffer, play victim, stay stuck, I instead vibrate in an infinite space of love, forgiveness and grace.
There is a deep stillness within, no matter what is going on around me.
BEingness is a sensation, space, way of BEing that I wish for everyone. It frees up the monkey mind to relax back into a knowing that all is working out.
Check out the The Beingness Project for some ways to begin the journey home to BEingness. Start a simple meditation practice, to open yourself to more. Below is a simple guided meditation I created for you.
May today be a day of flowing love, grace, peace and joy for you….
Today at The BEingness Project I begin to explore the simple awareness of BEingness in everyday life. Noticing how we interact and react in our daily interactions can shift everything. Small daily practices can move you out of a Reactionary life and into a life of BEingness – a life of Choice.
One of the ways we can empower ourselves is to set aside time each day to just BE. Shutting out the chaotic world, relaxing and opening up to the magnanimous creative energy that resides within. Taking the time to honor that we are more than our DOing in life.
I have joyfully begun to share my “channeled” meditations on Youtube – The Beingness Project – “Dawn with Fawn”. While I have enjoyed sharing these channeled guided meditations with clients and classes for years, I have been shy to share them further. Finally this week I took the brave leap, swallowing my fears to Surrender with trust.
I go into these meditations with no agenda, expectation, or guideline. I allow whatever flows into me to express itself, taking whoever is with me and myself on a journey. I do not know how long they will be, or what shall be shared. Thus, I completely Surrender into the meditative state.
There are many ways to enjoy meditation. Have fun exploring the various techniques and ways to meditate. I invite you to try meditating for a month to see what powerful things you start to feel and experience.
I woke today in pure, sweet, quiet grace… I could feel the nag of the human doing-ness pull on my arm. I told it to wait, to allow me the joy of BEING. As I welcomed the layered stillness and coolness of a 3:00am morning, the precious time before the world gets crazy and the chaos begins, a question rose from within me – “Why?” “Why do you get up Fawn?” “What propels you to step into each day?” “Why do you go forth into this world day after day?” “What is your ultimate truthful WHY?”
Instead of brushing such a question aside, I sunk into its expansive grace. I allowed it to cradle me like a lover’s gentle warmth. As I breathed deeply into it, I smiled at the answer which always gurgles up with such beautiful clarity – to BE LOVE. If I swim in the vibrational energy of love, all personal and outside expectations slide away, like a raindrop releasing itself from a leaf.
Today I greet you with a question – What is your WHY?
If you release yourself from ALL personal and outside expectations, if you let go of ALL do, if you surrender into the luscious grace of BEING, what rises from within as your WHY to BE?
As you explore this question, you might ask yourself, is life driving me, or am I driving my life from my WHY of BEING?
On this final day of exploring “Our Emotions” before we move into Expectations, I wanted to offer and recap some of this last weeks offerings. I share the video from “The Beingness Project” Vlog as a reminder that all we have to do is BE. In the chaotic world of today we have grown detached from our inner truth, racing from one “To Do” thing to the next, barely breathing, as we march through life without knowing what we truly feel. The ironic twist of it all, is that we are ultimately driven by “What We WANT to FEEL”, so why do we run from that which we seek, a Domesticated Paradox.
Answer these questions from the heart:
Why are you working so hard?
What do you want to achieve? Why?
Why do you want a lot of money?
Why do you want to have nice things?
Once you have everything you “want” – what then?
Why do you seek love?
What does a nice home and possessions give you?
Why do you desire to travel?
If you really answer the above questions, you will discover that at the root of them ALL, is the desire to “FEEL” a certain emotion. Such as, freedomfelt through financial abundance. Acceptance and a feeling of being chosen, when we are loved. Pridewith a sensation of successwhen we achieve a certain status. Joy, connection, and curious wonderas we travel to new places and meet new people. Peace, contentmentand an inner sense of feeling safewhen we relax within the comforts of our own home. You get the idea…
When we accept the truth that we are driven by the DESIRE to feel a certain way, we open up to the true power of our human spirit. If we first embrace the emotion we wish to experience, the rest will start to become. We must first feel joy within ourselves, to then truly experience it. Freedom is evoked from our own heart and soul, someone does not give you freedom. Peace does not reside outside ourselves, it comes from within. All that we seek exists inside us, once we Choose to own and BE in our desired emotions, our life experience begins to unfold for us.
It gets back to the simple practice of Noticing what you are feeling, Breathing deeply and Choosing what you desire to feel. Then BE it.
A strange title for sure, however I hope it made you curious to read more, for I want to share a game that may help to change your life.
Have you ever wanted to do something, but fear got in your way?
Do you have a dream for the kind of life you want to live, but you’re too afraid to go for it?
When you look back on your life do you wish you had taken more chances? Have regrets?
Are you ready to stop letting FEAR rule your life? If so let’s undertake this project together.
A Box of FEAR!!
Find a box, or container of some sort that you can decorate with inspiration. If you prefer your container to be on the computer, then create a space where you can place words or phrases.
Cut up some paper to write words, sentences or descriptions. If on the computer skip this step.
Now think of one thing in your life that you have wanted to do or say, but FEAR has kept you stuck.
As you think of this thing/sharing explore what you fear (See example below), identify the specific fear, write it down.
Now, look at the specific fear you wrote down, really see it. Take a deep long breath, honoring that fear – then tell it in your own words, “You no longer control me”- place the fear in the container/box.
As you place it in the box/container you are letting it go.
In place of the fear choose a word that is empowering, often the opposite of the fear.
Then CHOOSE one action step that you will take towards what you want to do/create/share.
Write this action step down on a piece of paper or computer. Put it where you see it many times throughout the day.
Take your action step!! (This does not have to be a big step, many little steps lead to the same destination)
I was terrified to send my first article off for publication to a magazine. As I looked at the fear it was based in “fear of rejection”. I gave “rejection” over to the Box of Fear and in its place I chose “Acceptance” with the action step of sending off the article. As a side note, it did get published :-).
I was scared to go back to college full time in my forties as a single mom with two young children and no car. My base fear was “fear of failure”. I let go of this fear, placing it in the box. In its place I chose “Courage” and “I am ENOUGH”. My action step, enroll, apply for financial aid and start back full time. Find a job on campus and get good at riding my bike. I completed my Bachelors degree.
Use this process to discover that you are brave enough, you are courageous, you are worthy, you can do it!!
Once you have built up your muscle of self-worth and self-love, you will no longer need “The Box of Fear”. Fear does not go away if you are living a dynamic passionate life, however it will have no control or limiting impact.
Fear is the grand gift that can propel you into the direction of your heart’s desire.
I find there are days or periods of time when I feel detached, as though I observe the world from a distance. I observe the hustle and bustle, feel the chaos and sense immense anticipation. I identify this emotion for me as an almost vast nothingness. I am not sad or happy, frustrated or free, just in a suspended weightlessness. I embrace that all is in process and transforming.
Like all emotions, the sensation of “nothingness” shifts. If I allow myself to feel all the nuances and subtleties, I discover that it is actually a very fine space to BE. It unfolds for me the wisdom of patience, faith and surrender. Learning that I do not need to change it, force it to be something else, deny it, or stuff it away.
In the past I have even cancelled plans to cuddle up with this emotional sensation, for I know on the other side of it I will awaken to a sweeter depth of BEING. It is an opportunity to love that which is and thus allow life to become and unfold. So often we force change, demand instant gratification, running from the awkward discomfort of not knowing.
Today is one of those days for me. I take a nice long inhale, hold it, and smile softly as I gently exhale, for I know that much is happening for me that I cannot see. Some would call this blind faith, others I suppose would see it as stupidity. I see and feel it as surrendered trust, the ultimate faith that all is unfolding and becoming exactly as it is meant to BE.
Do you ever have moments of unknown, unidentifiable emotion? Have you allowed them to BE, or forced yourself into a new emotion?
Today, I invite you to celebrate and BE in whatever emotions you are graced to experience. Allow the flow to unfurl, swirl, and dance. I encourage you to welcome the feeling of “nothing”, for it can open up some of the most amazing Ah-Ha discoveries.