Good Friday Morning my dear readers. I sit here listening to the rain pelt against the house, the wind swirling the fallen leaves across the outside deck. None of it is visible, for it is still black outside, the day is yet to fully wake up. Yesterday I opened all the windows to the amazing sunny seventy degree plus fall day, today I shall carry an umbrella as I embark on my conference adventure. Like the weather, life twists and turns in marvelous diverse ways.
Today I attend the Women Ignite annual conference. I am excited to meet other women who are going for it, stepping forward in their passions to serve as they are called. I get to step out of my comfort zone, to meet and get to know other entrepreneurs, a chance to learn, a chance to share. I am nervous and excited!!
This morning as I come to the page, I find myself thinking about what is my truth, in this glorious moment, what am I feeling, thinking, breathing in and out. I am a compilation of emotions. Sad for the recent loss of love in a dynamic powerful relationship with an amazing man. Excited about stepping with great passion and determination into my life calling and purpose. Humbled to my knees as I bring to mind all of the people along my life path who have helped me to soar, who have given without expectation, sacrificing money, time, opening their homes, giving in a myriad of ways to lift my kids and I up – WOW!!
There are so many stories of miraculous grace along my path. I sit here completely in awe as I review my life and sit in the present moment. Presently I sit in the most amazing home, a piece of paradise in the middle of the city. This home has cradled the kids and I for over two years, held us during all our ups and downs. It has been a gift beyond words, for we house sit, blessed to take care of it, while in truth it cares for us. This is one example of the unbelievable blessings in our lives. I think about the day I watched our white Honda CRV get pulled away, repossessed by the bank in the early fall of 2009. I had left the towing man a little note on the seat, thanking him for the kind way he handled such a “yucky” situation, for it cannot be easy to be the one who pulls away people’s means of transportation. I sat there listening to it load, tears sliding down my cheeks, recalling all the memories shared with my children and others thanks to that little vehicle. I sunk into the feeling of failure, shame enveloping my core. How many people were watching? What do I tell people? The vulnerable truth stared at me with no apology. Quietly I thought about all that had happened since I lost my job March 1st 2007, the domino effect of “losing everything”, my house, my car, forced to move to town…, oh it had been a journey, one you never plan on.
Today, I look at that time and all the years since, marveling at the miracles and the unparalleled graciousness of people who carried us through, loving us, helping us, supporting us, cheering us on. I truly sit here and have no words for the gratitude that bubbles up. As our car was pulled away, I was given a bike that would carry me over miles for the next year and half. I did not have money for a bike for myself and my two children, a gracious friend bestowed me with a bike that still makes me smile today. My car license plate hangs off the crate at the back where I carried many groceries, books as I went back to college full time, and helped the kids to and from various life adventures.
My list of miracles is long, and it just continues to expand daily. I could sit here typing all day and still I would be putting word to page into the night and tomorrow. The keys I touch with my fingers now is a gift, this MacBook Pro a gift of faith given to me in love to share my passion for the written word. I truly marvel at all the people who have touched our lives, literally picking us up off the ground, to dust us off and lovingly hold us with compassionate caring grace. Today I humbly bow, as I do everyday, praying that I may be the difference for those who need and seek as I have and do. May I continue to be the ripple effect of love which connects us all in a glorious tapestry of life. To all those out there who have been the wind beneath our wings, I bow my soul in gratitude. I look forward to the day that I get to fully give and share back, for what is given with such love comes back around with divine grace. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!
I apologize that today I did not do well in keeping it short. I come to the end of my first week of blogging every morning, it has been such a joy to come here, to be my truth, and to vulnerably step. I thank you for taking the time to journey with me/us. May today and the weekend be full of love, joy, and grace. A.C.T. (always choose truth) with love and courage. See you Monday…