It is time to catch you up on another amazing gift that completely humbled and awed the kids and I. For those of you following this blog you know that we have been living with friends since April 1st, 2015 in their one bathroom, three bedroom, 1300 sq ft home. I am still awed by this family’s generosity and graciousness! How many people do you know that will literally open up their whole home to you and your two children to stay for how ever long you need – WOW!! We were also blown away by three other friends who offered for us to come and live with them. Even as I write this I can feel the immense gratitude swirl around my being, with tears of magnanimous awe building up to float down my face with love.
As each day has come and gone the kids and I have maintained a quiet faith that the answers will come with regard to the next steps of our journey. The co-housing is delightfully working out for us all. We have established our patterns and cooperative bathroom use, giggling at times as we maneuver around each other. As a parent I question daily if what I am doing is fair to my kids, if it is asking too much of them, if it is compromising all of us including our host family! I breathe deeply, reaching into my heart to search for the truth within – seeking to answer if I should change our course, or continue to trust with a surrendered open soul that we are on the right path.
The answers to these questions come in the changes I see and feel in my children. I observe the miraculous awakening of my children’s spirits. In choosing together to take the drastic right turn out of the rut of life’s monotony we ignited a spark within each of us, an awareness that we are in this together, that we each impact the other, and together anything is possible.
My son has begun to really stretch out of his quiet introverted comfort zone to blog about his dreams for the Midtown Eden project (shared in previous post https://midtowneden.wordpress.com/), he is exploring with more intensity his goal to construct a tiny house for himself and to help build the one for my daughter and I. His interactions with others has become more confident, I experience him stepping into life with the believe that one can manifest and co-create a life journey. While my son has always been compassionate, kind, and grateful – I am blown away by how much I see these traits expanding as we continue to step.
In my daughter a light has come on that I had not seen in years! A sparkle shimmers in her eyes that speaks of a hope that one can manifest their own dreams. She too began her own blog, which filled my heart (https://laughablelassie.wordpress.com/) – for I have been watching both of my children living vicariously through watching other people’s blogs, YouTube clips, video games etc.., to see them create and take action filled me with pride, joy, and immense gratitude. I continue to swell with such speechless love as I watch her grab the kite strings to her future. No longer does she see herself limited because she is just a teen, or that we do not have money, or that we are not living in our own home, or…. She like my son is grabbing hold of life in each moment with an absolute faith that it will become if she steps forward in truth, openness, and gratitude.
On the wings of this growth and becoming we were humbly knocked over with the intensity of the next gift we received!! I got a Facebook message from a dear friend of mine asking me to contact her, for she had the answer to the next step in our journey. Intrigued I wrote back. She said, “Give me a call.” We proceeded to play phone tag for the next week or so and then finally our voices crossed the airwaves together. “I was wondering if you and the kids would be interested in house sitting for the next year to two years for us?” she asked. OMG, really!!! My whole being spun with what she was sharing and asking, seriously, really, somebody please pinch me to make sure this is not a dream!!! “Yes, yes, yes…we would be so honored, thrilled and grateful to live in your home!!” I responded almost breathless in gratitude. My son sat next to me in the car as we spoke on the phone, by now he began to put together what was happening, and a large smile began to spread across his face. Hanging up the phone I found myself in profound stillness, so overwhelmed by this immense gift and opportunity. I looked at my son and burst out in a happy jig and song – each of us smiling from ear to ear with joy and excitement. Again I found myself swept off my feet by the grace of things falling into place and becoming!!
We get to move into our new home sometime in July or August. Excitement, joy and absolute amazement illuminate this precious gift. Each day the three of us breathes deeply in our gratitude for what is and for what continues to unfold for us. We find ourselves truly humbled by the graciousness of our ever expanding community. I can honestly say each day holds magnanimous gifts and experiences. Not a day goes by that I am not humbled in awe and gratitude!